Feeling totally restless today. The reason may be that I am alone in my room today with a laptop and a smart phone. I spent whole hour from 8 pm to 9 pm trying to compose few stanzas of a poem. It was being a part of my daily routine anyway. After 9 pm, I played 8 ball pool restlessly for few minutes and now I am free. I do not prefer to stay online and chat with some best friends like I used to do. That does not sound good for me nowadays. And I know that does not make sense as well. However, that was not that much bad idea because that would help spend time with ease and also helps in getting closer to some friends. But nowadays, some of special friends are busy and some of them do not like me talking with them and even I don't like to chat with some of them. That's why I am restless now. Some friends are online but they hardly reply my texts. However, I do not feel bad about that because I understand them all. And I know it's okay to stop talking to them. And I decided to stay alone talking to myself in these paragraphs.
It's already 10th of Falgun today. I remembered that I had filled up form to appear in the examination of PSC which is going to be held on 26th Falgun. I am sad that I've no profound preparation for that exam. Similarly, our board exam of B.Ed. 3rd year is also coming closer. And don't have preparation for that either. I know I have to get good marks on that exam to pass the bachelor level in first division. For my sadness, I got only 50% in second year. And that result is still haunting me. I have to give my more time for my course books in order to increase in my percentage.
Another task remaining is that I have still not developed consistent reading habit. I have planned to read more books but I am still unable to stay committed to that plan. However, I will try my best to provide more time for the written books.
If I was above 21 years old, I would get chance to go to Norway as a Red Cross Volunteer. But for my unlucky I am just 19 years old now. I am sad about that too. But I know it's okay. In two years time from now on, I will complete my study of bachelor level. Only after then, I can think of some plans myself and I can decide whether it's good to keep on studying next level or go to some foreign countries for my own sake. It may be situational. However, I have to master over English language more and more.
I have to have mastery over English vocabulary, pronunciation, grammar and use. Some books written by native writer of English are very difficult to understand for us. However, if we keep on exposing ourselves to such books, we can surely understand any comprehensive texts in the future.
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